Why

Why

You ask

Why?

As If I knew

But

Why?

Maybe

The anger

The pain

Maybe

No one told me

So

I didn’t know

It could take over

Lead me to so much

Darkness

The Deaths

The Rape

The losses

Body count rising

After so much

Becoming

Survival

Willing

To chew off

My own arm

My own leg

To stay alive

Another day

Just one more minute

To allow me

To run away

Crippled

But “alive”?

The cold reality

Too much to bear

Unwilling

To feel

Settling

Into my half life

Because

I was not whole

Pieces scattered

Strewn

Until

That moment

A piece finally fit

Then another

Then another

A picture formed

Another existence

Another reality

Coming to believe

There could be more

Beyond the horror

Becoming

The broken vessel

You see

Created, molded

Fractures

Cracks

All for a purpose

To

At long last

Allow the light inside

TD