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Awoke


3:33am

Awake


But not woke


Trapped in my mind

Head spinning

Here

Again


Prisoner to those I failed

Dining on ashes

Long since extinguished


Why?

What more?


In this hole

At this bottom


Why?

Chains still bind


Reaching me

When I cannot reach them?


At long last

I see


Not “them”

Tethered by guilt

By shame

Of things I could not control


Holding on to pain

Just to feel


Laying down the shovel

Purging the stones

Breaking free


In this moment


Now rising

TD


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